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I’ve finally found someone who I can reverse gender roles with and it feels liberating. You see, the type of men I’ll actually date are few and far between. For one, I refuse to be involved with someone who doesn’t consider themselves a feminist. I can’t stand men who play the dominant, macho role that society has assigned them. I prefer more dynamism, more fluidity.
I thought our philosophies were too contradictory at first, but eventually I realized that they mesh together quite well. We finally determined that we’re fighting the same evil: oppression. While he sees the State as being the ultimate oppressive power structure, I see patriarchy in the same light. He’s influenced me to be more of an anarchist and I’ve in turn made him more of a feminist. We teach each other so much every day, and it makes for an interesting and healthy relationship.
Tonight at the house we had a really interesting group dance session. The music was broken down into 5 parts (Stillness, Staccato, Chaos, etc.) and it was essentially a metamorphose of expressive bodies, reacting to a variety of sounds. Once the initial awkwardness wore off, I felt free to move about however I desired. Afterward I felt so relaxed and at peace, like I’d shed a bit of my ego. It reminded me that I need to meditate more often.
I also forgot to mention in my last post that I got the internship at the Austin Film Society! Woot Woot!
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The burlesque/house show was out of control. There must have been 300 people there at one point. B L A C K I E was by far the best performance of the night, and has since become my new hero/lover. He somehow manages to fuse hip-hop and metal and… it’s just fucking amazing. But back to the burlesque! Tassled titties were exposed, violent whipped cream cumshots were had. Need I say more?
Lately I’ve been sort of depressed, mostly due to the negative reactions I’ve been getting from people toward my feminist views. Lip Service is somewhat in limbo right now and may be canceled this semester. Apparently we broadcast the sentence: “How many penises can you put in a woman?”, which is by FCC standards considered to be sexually explicit, and therefore obscene. I do recall someone saying this, but only in an analytical context, speaking matter-of-factly about the violent trends of pornography. I’m going to do my best to get a second chance on this one. If we have to tame the sexual aspects of the show, that’s fine. I would just be so lost without the show. There’s no other platform for my radical views.
On a happier note, the first weekend of shooting went well. We were able to knock out the motel, office, and house scenes. This upcoming weekend we will hit the green belt, the “cave” (our basement), and a cafe. Then we will wrap up at The Mohawk and Bookwoman the following week. I can’t wait to see all of the footage! By the way, I wanted to let everyone know that we will need a ton of extras for The Mohawk shoot on Friday January 23rd, from noon to 5 pm. Please come out if you can make it! You’ll get to drink and be in a local independent film!